S T A N L E Y, marry me, i love you.

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will edit in more skins stuff later possibly, i love love love abbud<3

Animation with biggie;;; DON'T STEAL!

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Working with some gif again, not a flash animation though I don't know how to do that on GIMP.

I do what i want

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Yeah, so, thanks,

I'm pissed that I'm was fucking smart, on my way out of here...and now I can't. I'm putting my trust in the fact that God knows what he's doing and my journey is just changing course...
I want to forget all this shit, I want to be able to just breathe and let it go, but I can't.
I want to just fucking let all my stress out and go crazydrunkfuckrollcumscreamdance. Skins style.

no inspiration.

Click the pics.

Wiz inspired me...barely. Can't think straight enough to...z z z Zz.
I feel like Katie from Skins. Ugh. I miss Skins so much.
Going to another doctor tomorrow. At 11am. Its now 818Am...fuck.

FACEBOOK FAIL.

Posting my blog came out as an Ad, complete fail, but I'm not going to take it off because I guess thats part of the anxiety, I shouldn't give a fuck what people think.
So basically right now I'm feeling like people are going to think I'm another low self-esteem attention whore: Follow me on tumblr! Formspring me! Like my posts! How bout...suck my dick?
I've been on facebook a lot lately, even though I hate it. I guess it makes me feel normal, because everyone else does it. In reality though I like getting pissed off at all the stupid shit I see.
....i kinda miss myspace. people didn't have as much balls. you said shit that you would actually say to the person in real life. because i honestly think when you first meet someone your convo isn't going to go like this:

hey, im bob. give me a rate and tell me if we're gonna fuck or not.
..i'm not judging though...because at least it shows who people really are...
whores & all.

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Going through too much, anxiety disorder?, I mean really, how the fuck did I get to this point?
Quit smoking...
Lost 40 llbs since December...
Lost 10 llbs since last week...
I'm not me...not who I used to be at least...
I make everyone nervous...
Feels like I got ADD...
Can't function...
So...I wanna free my mind.PictureMade: 01/22/11 1:40
...Back to art, helps me clear my mind.
And I'm tired of worrying about everyones fucking opinion all the time.
I used to never give a fuck,

Tough chick.

I love Kristen Stewart's weird, awkward, I don't-give-a-crap-what-you-think-or-say vibe. Whether she REALLY is like that, I'll never know. But for now, she has me convinced. Tough chicks make for an abundance of creative inspiration apparently.

....Bad.

I'm still awake and I don't know why. After all of the things that happened today my mind can not settle. I'm torn between what I know would be the GOOD thing to do and what would be the stand up for myself thing to do. I'm tired of allowing rude people to do whatever they want to everyone. I'm not dealing with it anymore, and if I'm the only one that stands up for it I guess I stand alone.

That being said, my moods were all over the place today. I tried to capture this in my latest creation, free yourself. Free whatever it is your holding back, or what you think you might want to say but are scared. Just go. I have to keep reminding myself that.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Random fall/Thanksgiving art. <3>